what a joke. my ex-col post it as her blog.

The closer you get to achieving what you want, the more you want to give it up, but the harder you want to Fight on! Until... you finally can't take it anymore...


I received an email from an ex-colleague and this is what it says...

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Guess you should be surprise with this mail. Just wanted to say a few words as follows :

- Really sorry for missing out on saying goodbye officially on your last day. Sincerely didn’t realise it and truly need to apologise for it;


- On the same topic, again I need to apologise for my “behavior”. Well you might not realise it fully at your young age, my behaviour of being so cold was purely to help you expedite certain decision making. I believe your passion and talents which are aplenty lie somewhere else. Really I can see that and our line of work is not your cuppa. Hope you understand and realise all that I wanted to achieve was for you to make an early decision. No point wasting your talent doing something that you have no heart of.

Our team is going through the necessary pains. A lot of potential that is yet to be harnessed. I am trying to help Yeonzon to build up a well-oiled and dedicated team in the shortest possible time. Remember I mentioned about a tight time line? Well, it could be nearing and I have not the luxury of time. Yeonzon is a very liberal guy and we should not take it for granted. With such freedom, one should in fact capitalize on it and build up our competencies. I am also looking to help build TEAMWORK into us and sadly, we still have some way to go.

Never mind the negative stuff. With the new year just around the corner, I would like to take this opportunity to wish you and family a Happy Chinese New Year. May the new year bring you and family tonnes of joy, love and happiness. Wish you the best on your endeavours and I am sure you will be able to go very far given your talent.
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Sometimes it makes me wonder, after putting me through that shit for six damn months... Leaving me with absolutely nothing to do, after not talking to me even though I sit right next to you all these while, you think an email sent through another colleague just because you were too much of a coward to send it through your own email is going to be enough?


You know, I would have given it MY ALL if I was given the chance... I would have left IF you told me that was what you wanted.. Because I would not have sat there and waited for 12 hours everyday for the past 6 months... Hoping, waiting for a change... I would not have bought in his idea that I have to endure... Even when I handed my resignation letter he said


" Yuhwen, sometimes we must have some patience...."


You know what.... At the end of the day, you got what you wanted... I left AT LAST.. Well done man! And I didn't leave because I wasn't competent, I left because WE WERE.... Above everything (Boss & Junior, Colleagues) ... FRIENDS...
I left because I couldn't take the cold shoulder.. I left because I was hurt... I left because you wouldn't give me a chance because you were dead set I wasn't into it...


I am not angry because I left, I am angry because you could have just TOLD ME? I am angry because you wanted to see me come in everyday and suffer the boredom, the pain of being ignored, the tension in the office, the begging I had to do, the pretense of the rest... I am angry because you wanted to watch my spirit die so slowly, to see that I have chosen to give up, to take away my pride and not even give me ONE bit of medicine to soothe my pain.


So no... you are not forgiven, because I am hurt that even after reading this email for the 20th time... I am still crying. You are not forgiven because you were a friend. Congratulations though, you did achieve what you wanted to do. A strategist indeed!